Lord of the Flies Post 2

Chapter 2
“Give me a break”
Ralph

Dear Diary,

Today has been a tiring and harsh day. I cannot during the night I need a break and I need to go outside the island for a while and hide for a little bit. I was officious to be lead now that I know how it feels I think I should let Jack lead for a while. I really do not know what to do with Piggy and all his whining, I know he has all these great ideas but Jack is really getting on his nerves as if he wants Piggy to cause something to hate us. Everybody was pinching the conch away from each other I' am confused and do not really know what to do with my group and the conch. The errant Jack, I say that we should split up because he can lead his people well but he cannot help me in leading my people to work as a group to achieve. At least Piggy is trying to mature and is trying to take action, he seems as if he should be leader of the whole group but nobody likes him. About last time when I went to the mountain with Simon, and Jack I left him in charge to have everybody’s name and to see who they are and what they do. Since the kid who cried last time we know that today we lose him as he wanders off so I’ am mad at Piggy. As I was really going to have Piggy being like my co-captain to help since he is observant, and is maturing but he cant control to get peoples attention. Without him we wouldn’t have the fire right now that I found out he didn’t do the job I gave him I can’t sleep as I feel like I caused the death of the child, why did I rely on Piggy so much. I wonder if Piggy would do something in recrimination to get back at Jack but it seems Piggy is to mature for that. Piggy specs will come in handy more but now that it has made the fire and now the fire is getting bigger, I feel that we might all burn down and not live. As I think about it all night along with the missing boy, I cannot take it no more. I say since I’ am the leader I to take actions and act like one I’ am not doing nothing about Piggy getting made fun of I feel like I’ am inducing Jack more to make fun of him because I’m not doing anything about it. I need more rules as the conch is mainly our biggest law now as it gives power and commandments to whoever has it or ideas. However, as we progress more I think the more laws we have the less people would follow them and they would start to betray each other we would split up and have wars with each other. I do not want it to happen.
1. Do you think this is a good island or a bad island?
I say the island is good because theres things to support us to live but Im not sure if its close to any Land where people are on it. But with us people on it, it kind of makes me feel like we will destroy the island until we can live.
2. What is the beastie?
The beastie is a animal that, that one kid called it and its in the island, as Jack says he will hunt it.
3. What does it symbolize?
The Conch symbolizes a law and who has the right to say what or to do the something.
4. How does it make you feel?
I feel many emotions I just need to take a break from everything and walk around and think things out to get our group in good shape to live and to work together. Another emotion is scared of us betraying each other.
5. What is your plan for being rescued?
I say we should just make fires around the island until we get saved because thats mainly the only thing to make a sign to get saved and rescued at the moment.
6. Do you want to be rescued?
I actually do want to be rescued because since things arent looking good between Jack and Piggy I say that they will actually have a war with each other and I don't want to be apart of it.
7. How did you start a fire and what happens to the fire?
We started the fire with the idea of Piggy of using his specs but first we ran to look for wood and the fire started all little as its getting bigger and bigger as it scares me as I think it could burnt the whole island down.
8. What happened to the little boy with a mark on his face?
He dissapeared when the fire got bigger, and now we barely know who he is since Piggy didn't do his job.
9. How are you different from all the other boys?
I' am different because I' am in charge and I got the power to lead the group but I haven't done anything yet I need to step up with more ideas. I' am also calm. Not like Jack and Piggy who go at it every minute.
10. As you go to bed each night, what is going through your head? Are you afraid, excited, indifferent…? What’s going on inside of your head?
I got many things in my mind at night as I think the island will burn I feel guilty about the boy disspearing and if he dies I'm going to feel like I killed him. I'm very scared about us in the island as I feel we might betray eachother.